Thursday, January 15, 2009

shaky truth about today

im in the midst of juggling a fair bit of newness in my life. and i dont think im as "settled" as i thought i was. today i added yet another element of newness into my crowded life. and i feel terribly unsettled. like a coke bottle thats been carried in a bag through a very bumpy ride. when the ride is done and im about to call it a day, i feel like its just going to erupt and bubble over. spilling uncontrollably all over the floor and making a giant mess.

i miss everything familiar. i miss home. i miss my parents. i miss my bed. i miss the warmth and security i had in 402. i miss everything i had that i took for granted. i miss having everything in life, in place.

i dread this shaky unfamiliar zone im in. and i feel awful that right now i have NOTHING thats familiar. nothing concrete. nothing fixed. (apart from the obvious, of course)

3 comments:

nakidswami said...

koki loki!...
chill madi, new things will come and fix those empty unfemilar gaps and feelings. :)
trust in me..

haathi said...

send me some long distance special hugs ra.. those work, always!

Preethi said...

revuu!! big big hug! lets go have some coffee ra..full happy u will be :D