the last day that was..

i had a weird new years eve. it spanned such a variety of emotions. anticipation, excitement, disappointment, sadness, frustration, dejection, loss, defeat, helplessness, relief, happiness, drunkenness, elation, excitement, love, contentment, sleepiness... all in the span of a few hours.

what began as a disaster, left me feeling that this day is so overrated. iv always thought so. and iv barely ever "celebrated'. whats to celebrate really? if you think about it, its just the completion of yet another revolution around the sun. the passing of 365 and 1/4th days. reason to get older. the passage of time. time catching up. and yet all this hullaballoo..much ado about nothing, maybe?

but i wanted to celebrate this time. "celebrate". i think new years eve was a coincidence. a reason. a day to have fun. i just really wanted to be with family. with niyu. with dumms. with priya. with james. with everyone i can truly freely be myself around. just to let my hair down and have a good night. just for one night in the year. and i was looking forward to it. music. alcohol. biryani. chill times.

and it almost didnt happen.

but then it did. and i had a fun night. theres 2 kinds of people in this world. the kind that get you, the kind you can be free with. the kind who know the real mad crazy you, inside out. and the kind that just dont fucking have a clue.

i think i prefer the former. and last night was all about that.

happy new year all my lowes.