Wednesday, April 16, 2008


take a's too short to be anything but happy.
and so i did.
so it is, that a new beginning has sort of snowballed its way into my life sooner than i expected. makes me believe in fate and destiny. and positivity.
i will begin anew. but im prepared, or so id like to think.
its the best feeling. ever.
welcome to my life dumsy.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

run reva run

so the running has begun again.
small beginnings.
tremendous energy.
iv noticed it makes me energetic through the day, and keeps me going.

here's to keeping it going.
sustaining it is always the tough part.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

professional rant

is this some sort of rut?
some cycle?
some sign from up above?
why is it that work cannot excite me and sustain me longer than 4 months?
can i really attribute it to immediate changes around here? the persistent lack of reason, encouragement, direction? a mentor perhaps?
or should i stop looking for it? and fend for myself?
when all about me seems like its falling apart, and nobody seems to care, should i sit and feel what im feeling in all its splendour, and hope for some catharxis?
or should i turn a blind eye and hope its nothing permanent?

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

weirdness returns

family is so full of hot air sometimes. and expectations, respect and adoration is so fragile. they can crumble so easily when opinions and judgement calls fly out thoughtlessly. and then guilt comes in spurts and starts. what does it mean anyway?

fuck the world. nobody can replace your heart and your will.