Monday, July 03, 2006

in-secure

im insecure. [am i?]
or maybe im secure in my insecurity. in the fact that i know, and yet it makes me insecure. im insecure over something really trivial. over someone iv never met, someone i dont ever want to meet, someone i know means nothing to me.
but i need to hear the same from someone else. reaffirm my shaky faith.
i hate my mind. its taking over tonight. im going to sleep listening to time of your life..yes, greenday.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

no da we all (i think)go thru it..i remember i use to have massive issues about insecurity when i was younger and when i say massive i mean losing sleep over it types..always having a knot in ure stomach types..nat a worrying like everything it's a phase...it'll always be there but the number of times it arises will decrease with time..ok enough gyaan...on a better note..no college today due to rains..only starting wednesday plus i might be staying at the college hostel cause they have one seat vacant...ok place with balcony and all..independant room but sharing kkus loos...but only till i find a place to stay...ok tata bye byes

Dr. Pissed said...

And life goes on, dont it?

haathi said...

mamu: yeah it comes and goes, the insecurity. no prizes for guessing what/who is making me bleah. muhaha..yeah its like i feel stupid, but i cant control it. and nobody gets that da. it sucks. how much mental and i hurt over it. thoo thoo. good going on rains-so-bo-college! and good going on deciding to stay in hostel for a bit. balcony means i know you'll oodeshfy! have fun da.

dp: yes it does. its like a vicious cycle. we all know whats coming next, and we keep going thru it over and over. same thing happened. it came, i went thru it, and its gone. and the next day we wake up to a bright and sunshiney morning..or make that cold and gray morning in bangalore.

mamoid said...

u really think it's a good idea to stay in a hostel?? oh well i guess i have to for the time being.... i want to come home...i have my own room,tv..one tree hill starts today,joey starts on the 12th!!! i want home now!!!!

haathi said...

UHSOO yess a?! you're giving me tv updates from there and all. too much. i havent watched a shred of tv. what with the football mania and the ridiculous coming-home time i keep these days.

never was a big one tree hill fan, except for gavin degraw. watched some 2 episodes. joey i want to see..thanks for informing. now i will make sure tv is available!

mamoid said...

what da!!!!whats with these rains!!!!it just doesnt stop!!! im pissed now but glad since i've had no college till now!!!!muhahahaha...how is mental??and how come nothing on the blog for two days??

Ajeya said...

time of your life... nice! I love that song