Wednesday, December 15, 2010

the truth

i miss work in bangalore. terribly.
and thats all i have to say for now.

edit:
so, it only when you think about a situation in retrospect and you have a comparison to match it against, do you realize just what you really had. and yes, im talking purely about the work situation.

i cant say it enough and feel it enough. i MISS my job at EY. TERRIBLY. with all my heart. i miss tindoo. i miss swati. i miss the dynamics and understanding we had. i missed how we stuck our necks out for each other. i miss how we had a silent rapport, where so much was understood without having to say it. i miss the kind of work i did. i miss how easy it was. i miss how much i enjoyed it and how i could exercise my will and be given credit for it. i missed how free i was. i missed how i was in charge. i missed how i had found that which gives me so much joy and satisfaction. i miss not having to fumble and figure out why im doing what i am doing. i miss having found that comfort zone. because right now im in so much discomfort its not funny.

today, i probably shouldnt be making a comparison. but i cant help myself. the stupidity that made itself visible to me induced the comparison.

after 5 pretty awesome days and 2 decent days, i had my first downright fuckall day. the easiest thing to do would be to blame it on the one thing that i think is responsible for making me feel this way. but a small part of me, and all the things iv learnt from my various professional experiences is telling me to calm down and introspect. so, introspect i will.

im frustrated and pissed off today. and its something i havent felt in a long time. not thanks to "work" at least. over and out.

7 comments:

Jeweliot said...

Time..

prateek james said...

hang in there yo

Karishma Sundaram said...

I'm guessing this is bigger than the appearance of the lizard. What happened?

hAAthi said...

@all: teething trouble. yes, time. yes, hanging in there.

@k: we shall meet and i shall elaborate. tomorrow evening?

Tweedle Dee said...

giving huggies and lowe!!

Pesto Sauce said...

Bad days do come and go....take it easy

hAAthi said...

tweedle: thanky!

pesto: il try :)