Saturday, October 31, 2009

octoberfesting it in bangalore..

..with my rather large beer mug..

Sent from my Nokia phone

irony

one of the best things about being married, is that you are never alone.

and sometimes, its also the worst part.

Friday, October 30, 2009

points to ponder #3, #4 and #5

#3
when im so not fussy, and eat ANYthing thats made, why do i need to decide what i want for dinner?

#4
am i worth nothing more than producing a baby? in a jiffy, at that..

#5
why is my workplace filled with so many fools? its like a whole club of imbeciles out here.

jai guru deva

words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
they slither while they pass
they slip away across the universe
pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind
possessing and caressing me...

the crap in my life has this knack of attacking me when im least expecting it. its when the going is really good that i should start worrying, and wondering why its going so good. its almost like when the going is good, it ought to be too good to be true -- and WHAM! CRAP ATTACK!

and it comes in waves. crap waves. waves of crap. crappy waves. like a chain reaction thats set off by some arbit stupid occurence that is so out of my control, that it makes me want to scream out loud.

like all the crap is not enough, i got a craMp attack too today. so if im nasty and i bite your head off, forgive me, and blame it on my hormones please.

i need the strength to get through today. its friday and i need to just get to the end of the day and reach the weekend. all i can say is, jai guruuuu deeevaaaaaa..

hohumsigh. overandout.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

bangalore's october skies

its a pretty day outside. and i just got out of work :D


Sent from my Nokia phone

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

hurrah!

i have just tasted a small bit of success. and its tastes GOOHHHD :D

awards and accolades aside, the bigger kick is coming from the fact that this is a weird validation of the effort that goes in to what i do. on-the-job my team often gets dismissed as a team with people who are there to fill spots, and that "nobody gives a fuck about internal communications" -- but THIS is proof that what we do matters. and that we do it fairly well.

we just won 3 awards at the league of american communication professionals awards. and i think maybe this is just a tiny taster for things to come.

Friday, October 16, 2009

okay, so im bored and jobless at work after a REALLLY long time -- so here goes..

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.
namaste!

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can & catch air?
eerm. done.. now what?

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Bigg Boss

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
3:20 p.m.

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
3:30 p.m.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the admin guys chattering on in telugu, and my bosses bangles clanging as she types.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
10 minutes ago, when i walked to the next tower for a meeting.

8. Before you started this Q&As, what did you look at?
a blog by an indiangned who lives in nashville.

9. What are you wearing?
something i RARELY wear.. a sari, because its diwali at office!

10. When did you last laugh?
just a little while ago, when my boss and i were re-living the meeting we were just

in..

11. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
big windows, with blinds covering them..

12. Seen anything weird lately?
just did. this guy in the advisory team, who thinks he's the funniest man alive. and

who also thought i might want to invite him for lunch. how optimistic..

13. What do you think of this quiz?
its just the thing i needed on an afternoon like this.

14. What is the last film you saw?
the inglorious basterds. and i loved it!

15. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?
many holidays to the corners of the world!

16. Tell me something about you that I dunno!
i absolutely MUST have 2 small soft cushions by my left side when i go to sleep. if i dont have them, i dont sleep well.

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics,

what would you do?
id make teleporting possible.

18. Do you like to Dance?
yup!

19. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
aliya

20. Imagine your first child is a boy , what do you call him?
samir

21. Would you ever consider living abroad?
oh yeah!

22. What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
welcome!

fine lines..

there's a fine line between love and hate. i VERY RARELY cross the line.
there's a fine line between trying and giving up. i teeter over a lot of the time.
there's a fine line between being true and faking it. i rarely cross it.
there's a fine line between needing and doing without. i cross over sometimes, in moments of weakness.
there's a fine line between being brave and being chicken shit. i tend to sit on the fence.
there's a fine line between being lonely and enjoying solitude. i choose carefully.
there's a fine line between liking and disliking. i am often torn.

but there's also a very fine line between understanding someone and not understanding someone. the line is so fine, sometimes its not even there. you think you fully understand someone, have a perfect match of wavelengths and frequencies, to the point of doing the same things at the same time, saying the same things out loud, listening to the same music even though you're in different places..and yet sometimes it just DOESNT make sense. and its hard to choose which side of the line you belong on.

its unfortunate. its petty. its best forgotten. and forgotten i have. maybe because thats just me. shit happens, but i rarely bear grudges. iv learnt that the world is filled with people who come in all kinds -- shapes, sizes, colors, personalities. and i try and accept people for what they are. yet, the shit happens. we move on. and in moving on, we hang on to the precious few who we know we can depend on. who we know we can still talk to without trying too hard to make sense. the ones we dont have to try too hard to be out of touch with. the ones who bring a smile to your face when you think back on past memories. the ones who will probably never fade away from your mind.

there's a fine line between forgetting and not forgetting. i have a REALLY good memory.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same..

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you had her maybe you lost her to another
To another

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

enough.

its been a day of fighting and yelling.
i wanna throw my hands up and give up.
can i?

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

faith, further diminishing

my tiny bubble world needs more genuineness. more real people. with real feelings.

and less fluff. and less superficiality. and less back biting.

sometimes i think the problem is with me. and yet i cant quite figure out what it is that i do wrong...

current state of mind: sigh

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

when did it get this way?

the home is a bit of a circus.
i wake up and i drive to work. the challenging/entertaining/tiring/frustrating drive to work is like driving through a real-time circus.
and work, thats the biggest circus of them all. we have 'em all. the clowns, the animals, the tricks, the jokes, the nasty hierarchy, the psychedelic spandex costumes...the whole nine yards.

when did it get this way??
..while i wasn't looking.